journal entry no. 19


some words from that first night in Copenhagen, when the jet lag was so bad I couldn’t sleep at all |some words from a song I really like

Xo, Rachel


journal entry no. 18



Truly can’t believe I succeeded in posting every day this month (2 years in a row babyyyy) – I hope if anyone followed along they enjoyed themselves because I am really proud of some of the things I put up throughout October and hope to keep this momentum going?? Maybe?

Here’s a cliche life lesson to take away: let it out. Let it alllllllll out. You’ll feel better afterwards.

Xo, Rachel



in between

I thought I was over it
But I realized that closing my eyes doesn’t change where I am
If I’m stuck in purgatory I must start crawling
I will never find the light if I reuse to accept that I’ve been standing here in the dark
I’ll get to the other side, but not with my eyelids shut or my feet planted

Xo, Rachel


dark january

And squares
And sideways glares

And you
And dark shades of blue

And now
It all broke somehow

And toes
And the way these things go

And squares
And me over here
And you over there

Xo, Rachel




How do I stop
living a half life?

How do I plant
my feet on the ground?

How can I breathe
without counting breaths?

How will I know
when everything is in place?

How long will I wait
to feel human?

Xo, Rachel


take a break

sit outside in the sun for hours

paint your toenails
and then dance barefoot in the grass

read an entire book in one go

lay on the couch,
burn a candle

cook something that takes ages

do something
that feels like nothing

Xo, Rachel



hung up

apologies for the lil hiatus – here’s a thing I wrote in the spring

i’ve kept all these people as options
never letting them walk out of my life fully
in my mind i’ve kept them
hung on the back of a door
by the collars of their shirts
in case i ever need someone

i say i don’t want to play games
as i deal the cards out

i never commit to any one
for fear of losing the others
but by doing that
i don’t truly have anyone
just parts of people
spread over cities i don’t live in
and won’t visit
because it’s not like we are dating

but i don’t say anything
i simply keep them hung up,
and stay hung up on them


xo, rachel