a year

I don’t have a long list of things I learned this past year, I just want to document the happiness that has kept me warm the past 12 months. I have been so unbelievably happy lately, and it came out of nowhere. The bad days barely phase me, when I have this many good days banked. I don’t even know what to say. With 2016 being fuelled by sadness, and the year before by anxiety, 2017 being the year of joy was a pleasure.

If the last year was about going it alone, this one was undoubtably about being around people I love. Hey, hell may be other people, but I think heaven may be other people as well. I have so many lovely humans in my life and I can’t thank them enough for the time we’ve spent together, be it a few months or a few minutes.

Looking through the notes on my phone and the entries in my journal, it’s clear how much of an impact other people had on me in 2017 – from my first vegan friends, a major road trip, reconnecting with old pals, staring at the stars with my coworkers, countless campfires, strangers I met while hiking or travelling, and being geographically close to my family the majority of the year, to the people I just met last month and have already become attached to. I love people. I really thought I wanted to be alone, but I was just afraid of rejection, fancy that!

I just feel like I’m surrounded by so much love and positivity and I can’t help but smile about it. Ahhhhhhhhh. Seriously. And with this good feeling, I’ve had so much more energy to go out and do things with my life – in the summer I wrote in my journal that I’d been going outside so I wouldn’t feel sad, and because I was no longer sad, I actually wanted to go outside. What a wonderful cycle to be in.

Some notable things I did last year because I wasn’t MOPING:

  • Saw my favourite band in Phoenix, Seattle, and Toronto
  • Visited 3 provinces I’d never been to
  • Europe!!!
  • Tried a bit of kayaking, canoeing, mountain biking, climbing, and rode on the back of a motorcycle
  • Ate a ton of good food, drank a lot of coffee
  • Countless day trips
  • Got some #sick tattoos and dyed my hair a bunch
  • Made a zine?
  • Didn’t sink into a deep deep void

So yeah, shouts out to my friends because I love y’all so damn much. And shouts out life for being so cool right now. Feeling this much positivity is very unlike me but I’m kind of digging it, sorry if it’s a BIT MUCH. I hope you’re feeling good, and like, happy new year.

Xo, Rachel


journal entry no. 19


some words from that first night in Copenhagen, when the jet lag was so bad I couldn’t sleep at all |some words from a song I really like

Xo, Rachel




we laid on the beach and looked at a million stars
i’m still finding sand everywhere
my hair, my socks, my bed, our bathroom floor
but it’s over
all i have now is sand
and those cheap sunglasses
because you took back your sweater
and you drove home
i hope you take your shoes off one day
and a bit of sand falls out
and you think about that last night



sometimes i still find sand in strange places
in my carpet, at the bottom of my backpack
but it’s from a different beach

i’ve had this one in my drafts for way too long

xo, rachel


journal entry no. 18



Truly can’t believe I succeeded in posting every day this month (2 years in a row babyyyy) – I hope if anyone followed along they enjoyed themselves because I am really proud of some of the things I put up throughout October and hope to keep this momentum going?? Maybe?

Here’s a cliche life lesson to take away: let it out. Let it alllllllll out. You’ll feel better afterwards.

Xo, Rachel




Because I am a Big Fan of taking the Long Way Home, Austria wasn’t the true end of my trip.

It ended up being cheapest to fly Salzburg to London, London to St. John’s, St. John’s to Toronto, so that’s what I did. I worked it out so I had nearly an entire day in London to wander around, eat some grocery store sandwiches – which, in the UK, are great by the way – and listen to English Girls by The Maine on repeat. I also had like 6 hours in St. John’s (Newfoundland, Canada) which I was super excited about because I’d never been there before.

I don’t know if it’s just the headspace I’ve been in both times I’ve visited the city, or the areas I chose to see, but I don’t really love London. I don’t hate it, I simply like other places more. Anyways. It doesn’t matter. I had a nice evening.

St. John’s, on the other hand, I adored. As luck had it, I ended up sharing a cab into town with a few other people and spent my entire layover hanging out with them and exploring a little bit of the island. We went up to Signal Hill and hiked all around it and into downtown, getting to know each other while being constantly awed by how beautiful the place we all randomly found ourselves in was. Seriously, the landscape was stunning, the classic coloured buildings in town contrasted so well, and the whole place felt so welcoming. Plus, the french fries I ate at a pub on the main street were freaking great. It was the best layover I’ve ever had. I didn’t get anyone’s contact information, and I don’t remember their names, but I hope they’re all having fun, wherever they are in the world.


Oh, and I somehow ended up in the “Plus” seats on the plane and was given free food and drinks the whole flight from London. I am 100% sure this was a mistake on their part, but I wasn’t about to forfeit all that luxury. Who would?

Also, this ad I saw in Iceland that I haven’t had the chance to include yet:


Aaaaaaand that’s it. That’s all. Now I’m back on Eastern time and sleeping in my own bed. Thinking about where I’ll go next, and where I’ll go after that, and after that and after that. Endless possibilities.

Here’s a song I kept hearing on the radio in Europe and that I still can’t get out of my head. Cheers!

Xo, Rachel




journal entry no. 17


My diamond under sheets, I’ll see you in my dreams.

Xo, Rachel



Cities are fun, but good god damn I was ready to get into the woods. I really needed a good hike and some fresh air.

Innsbruck (4 days)
On the bus ride from Munich, not gonna lie, I got a lil emotional when the landscape started changing from hills to mountains, when I could really see the fall colours, all of it. The small piece of Austria that I saw immediately topped everywhere I’d been before. No offence, but like I said, cities are cities and nature really GETS ME. While I was completely unprepared to be doing steep, rough trails, I did it anyway. I’m not about to visit the Austrian Alps and admire them from the base. To get on with it, Innsbruck was my favourite place – it felt a lot like ski towns I’ve been to in BC, and I love that.
Food wise I cheaped out because my hostel had free breakfast and at this point I was pretty sure I’d spent more money than I’d planned so I ate mostly grocery store food. I did get Indian food twice from Sahib and some soup from My Indigo, and the vegan burger from Ludwig which was so bomb I also went to their location in Salzburg. I went to a vegan cafe as well but I didn’t like it so I’m not gonna link it!! I did ride the gondola up the mountain one of the days, which is a little expensive but if you don’t feel like hiking nearly an hour uphill just to get to the head of trails, maybe splurge. Either way, definitely do a trail. I had the absolute best time wandering around in the forest, took a million photos, and had I wanted to (I did but I was being cheap), I could have stopped for a beer at one of many restaurants up there. Who doesn’t wanna stop for a mid-hike beverage with ridiculous views of Innsbruck, surrounded by farm animals and other dirty hikers? Actually this entire stop was full of fails on my part, as the next day I got on the wrong train and ended up having to hike another hour to the start of the trail I wanted to do, and didn’t end up having enough time to complete it. Haha. I still had a great time, because it’s all part of the EXPERIENCE. Right? Plus I saw a wild goat that day and went through a rock tunnel because of my detour. Which was cool. Innsbruck was cool. I think the trails I did were Arzler Alm and Eagle Walk Stage 14 (the one I didn’t finish), plus some other random twists and turns I did on a whim on my way up and down the mountain. Honestly, any trail would have been stunning, I just happened to choose these.

Salzburg (2 days)
I kind of messed up planning and only really had one full day in Salzburg, which was not ideal – but I think I made the most of that day. I walked along the river, ate some really good food (breakfast at Gustav [the best sandwich I’ve ever had! Nice small talk with other customers!], lunch/dinner at Uncle Van) , and enjoyed some views of the hills and castles (?) surrounding the town. The hills were truly alive. With the sound of church bells. Brilliant.

What a magical place. Everyone, get to Austria. For me. Shouts out to the friend that encouraged me to go there because like Denmark, I don’t know when I would have gotten around to it without some prompt.

Xo, Rachel