dark january

And squares
And sideways glares

And you
And dark shades of blue

And now
It all broke somehow

And toes
And the way these things go

And squares
And me over here
And you over there

Xo, Rachel



hung up

apologies for the lil hiatus – here’s a thing I wrote in the spring

i’ve kept all these people as options
never letting them walk out of my life fully
in my mind i’ve kept them
hung on the back of a door
by the collars of their shirts
in case i ever need someone

i say i don’t want to play games
as i deal the cards out

i never commit to any one
for fear of losing the others
but by doing that
i don’t truly have anyone
just parts of people
spread over cities i don’t live in
and won’t visit
because it’s not like we are dating

but i don’t say anything
i simply keep them hung up,
and stay hung up on them


xo, rachel